December 2009
“you want to meet to tell me how you had the heart to fuck up my whole life....”
– The Veronicas
"just don't give in, i'm working it out."
I never exactly thought this would happen. I mean, you’ll always be the dude who’s there for me, but I never really thought of you that way. I guess, I wasn’t careful enough. But obviously, you know how I feel about my guy. He’s, amazing. I can’t helo but to be in love. I do love you, but I’m not in love with you. There’s a HUGE difference. I’m into...
"all of the stars have faded away."
Today. Today. I bet today is going to be the worst day ever. Today. Today. Is such a FUCKING LIE. I only have a few hours, to let go of everything, and start a fresh.
"say the words that people say."
I haven’t eaten at all since morning. I don’t really care if I faint anytime soon now. Actually, I’m hoping I do - so I could forget whatever it is that’s bothering me. It’s not something I can control. If it’s a burden to you, then, I completely understand if you were to leave me.
"is this masquerade finally over,"
I had my heart ripped right out of my chest, and I can totally blame my asthma for that. Just the begining of the year and I’m getting sick. And now I’m left alone, with this regret, pain and worry. It’s such a pain in the ass, these things. I’d just have to bear with it then.
“romeo didn’t die for love, he died because of it.”
– Me
“you said you’re weak, you won’t let me down. you lied through your...”
– Silverstein
"i dream of steel, maroon and warm."
I was planning to tell you, but I didn’t. I guess, it’s my little secret for now. Great, now my room smells like the one thing I despise - cigarettes. Guess I’m sleeping on the couch tonight. I would just have to hope that you’ll forgive me, for the useless girlfriend I am.
FAUZAN,THIS IS YOUR OWN PROBLEM SO WHY ARE YOU ASKING MEEEEEEE?!
P.S. You deserve better than this.
"and i will get lost into your eyes."
Fuck, I’m so pissed off today. I have noooooooo idea why. Luckily I managed to keep my cool all the way through. Maybe it’s the fact that I had only bloody four hours of sleep and that SOMEONE stole my fucking diary and READ it without MY PERMISSION. Come ON, if I can’t get any sleep or company at least give me some SPACE. I need some privacy - like helloooooooooo. It’s no...
"picture perfect pretty girl with nothing to say."
Lyn is making me laugh so hard it hurts! She’s looking in the mirror saying, “there are three reasons why I’m ugly” cheerfully. Then she starts making this stupid faces. What the fuck! If anyone were to ask me what’s my inspiration for being so weird - I’ll say it’s my sisters.
Reblog if you want world peace.
"whatever you like."
Ira: Haiqal, she says I love you (referring to me)
Haiqal: Uhhh, I love you back.
Me: I didn't even say that.
Ira: Hahahaha, I know.
"her voice resides."
Sab, let’s hope that we won’t die before we get into secondary three. Okay? Yes, let’s.
So I was bored at home, half dead when suddenly I had an idea of visiting my old friend of mine - Nur Ira Natasha. I asked Fyka to come along, and she said yes. Ha-ha. Okay enough of this shit. Apparently Fyka brought her Hehe a.k.a. one-who-makes-me-laugh-my-ass-off along with her. After...
2009.
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2009: In the beginning Where did you bring in the New Year? Drving around town with my family and hearing my sister scream at strangers “Happy New Year” like an idiot. Who were you with? Parents and Siblings.
Did you kiss anyone at midnight? Nahh, midnight breath. Did you make any resolutions? Errr no.
2009:...
“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally without expecting anything in...”
– Ain
"i fell in love with you suddenly."
Just as I was about to take a good nap, the phone ringed - for the fourth time! I want to sl-eep, not entertain you DBS bank people with funny accents! AND THEN, Iwan said he’s coming over. WHAT. Couldn’t he at least come over later in the afternoon or something. ARGH @#$%^&*! I’m tumblr-ing as I can’t go back to sleep, I’m so bored that I could cry. I guess I had...
"smile in your sleep."
Mission accomplished - I managed to wake up at the right time. A bit too early, actually. Going to school alone is so boring. Tsk tsk tsk. And I simply can’t wait for January, (despite/because school is opening) because I have an evil little plan. Ira and Fyka, you know what I’m talking about. You know EXACTLY what I’m talking about, yeah? Nyeheheh. So anyways, I should be going...
"dreams see us through to forever."
Taufik Batisah was on television, and suddenly - a conversation started.
Fara: He's so cute.
Me: Yeah.
Fara: AND he's not gay.
Me: All the handsome, perfect guys are gay.
Fara: And all the not handsome ones are straight.
Qusaiy: (Looks at me and laughs)
Me: Maybeeee, he'll become gay the next day to prove his point (referring to Qusaiy)
Fara: (Looks at Qusaiy and laughs)
Qusaiy: (Laughs and gives the what-the-hell-face)
Me: Chill it's just a joke.
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Fara: (Says to Qusaiy) Your brother cute sey.
Qusaiy: Mentel eh.
Fara: Mana ada?
Me: They always say, "Matair biar satu, kawan biar ramai."
Qusaiy: HAHAHAHA, adik-beradik ni eh.
“we’ll be walking through this, when summer’s gone - we’ll...”
– Blue
This is so true, yo.
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Re-blog & bold which month you are :)
JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows...
when boredom stirkes. →
"the future i cannot forget."
I don’t know why some people might describe me as hardcore, gothic or maybe even scary. Maybe it’s the fact I listen to Metal bands like Cradle OF Filth, The Ataris, Silverstein or Scorpions, wear black nail polish and eyeliner. Excuse you, I’m not making a statement or anything - I just happen to like those things. Rock never die brotherrr! I-am-grinning-widely.
Ahh damn it, I...
Bold what you’ve seen.
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andwhenitrains:
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Titanic. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest. The Dark Knight. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone. Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Star Wars: Episode I - The...
"dancing on coals, dancing with the angel."
Me: I dare you.
D: Dare me what?
Me: To kiss me.
D: Oh. That's easy.
"everytime it makes me laugh."
Me and my sister were playing hang man, and it was my turn.
Fara: Let me guess, Nurfarahin Bte Khusaini (her name)
Me: Mmhmm.
The hint was: The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me.
"on a mountain he sits, not of gold but of shit."
Ira, you and I are so evil. I like it. I can just picture them holding hands right now. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Okay I should stop laughing to myself.
I wish I could feel the waves crash against my feet once again. Walk by the beach and collect seashells. Watch wrestling with my grandparents. Have barbeque’s in the middle of the night and go skating with my cousins. Fly kites in the...
"late night sips so wicked so tight."
Here I am, at home, in my studed jeans and my “this is your lucky day because I just happen to be single” shirt, listening to the rock version of Whatever You Like while sipping on Milo downstairs in the dark. Yeah, it’s a fun ride. I’d have to go to school tomorrow - AT BLOODY EIGHT IN THE MORNING. I hope I can make it. Finnish students, here I come!
P.S. I am finally...
"broken and abused by you."
School is starting in just a matter of days. So I guess I’d have to make the best out of the holidays. Having my prettyhead over at my house - it’s such a delight. And I heard that somebody bought something for someone today. If you know what I mean. Teehee.
P.S. Man, it feels so wrong - but we’re just friends.
Bold All the things you've done in 2009
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1. Dyed your hair an odd color. 2. Went skinny dipping. 3. Bought something you didn’t need. 4. Snuck out of your house. 5. Became obsessed with a song no one knew. 6. Learned a song on your phone with your keypad. 7. Knitted something. 8. Ran a mile. 9. Fell in love. 10. Said, “like yeahh” too many times. 11. Lost your closest friends. 12. Got into...
“all the times you promised me that everything would work out in the end, you...”
– Silverstein
“her love, it’s like the wind. i can’t see it, but i can feel it.”
– A Walk To Remember
"that's all i'm breathing for."
It was a thrill watching Saw 5 with the dudes. And it was boring watching them play chess - a draw. Who would have known. Well, I suck at chess. Dad brought home my favourite salad. Yay, this is totally the right time for some cheering up. Maybe I should paint later.
P.S. Oh-my-gosh, Lee Ryan gives me goosebumps. Hee-hee.
"watching her hold what used to mine."
Fara and Qusaiy were staring at this poster, so I was curious what they were looking at.
Me: I don't know any of these people.
Fara: Hahahahaha.
Me: What's so funny?
Fara: It's funny.
Qusaiy: What she say?
Fara: She said she doesn't know any of these people.
Qusaiy: Hahahahaha.
Me: I don't get it.
I always say something funny - but I don't get it!
"all i want to do is speak my mind."
Fara: Mum, who's the new Singapore Idol?
Mum: Hmm.
Me and Fara: (Looks at each other) That means... SEZARI WON! (Jumps up and down continuously.)
Fara: Lyn ! Sezari won!
All (except Mum, muahaha) jumps up and down while cheering.
Fara: Come on Sya, let's go show off to dad!
Me: Yes, let's!
Both: (Goes to Dad's room) I TOLD YOU SO!
"loving you with all my heart supply."
Fara and I were discussing about the script we were making for learning Maths.
Fara: Let's show off to them that we'll study maths.
Me: Yeah, "Oh Fara, you're such a good teacher."
Fara: (Parents alert read this when you're parents are coming) Oh hi, mum/dad. We are just studying.
Both: HAHA ! That's stupid.
And when we finally reached home, the only thing we did was sleep until tomorrow.
